Such a waste of time and feelings

Me, myself & I, that’s all I got. Nobody else to let me down or make me cry. I’ve never felt so alive again. I can finally say I’m starting to move on with my life again. Goodbye past! You won’t be missed & you will be forgotten. All thats left is ashes. Thanks for opening my eyes & making me stronger. Thanks for helping me see the REAL truth & the REAL things you do. I know I won’t ever be lied to again. I’m free.

& leave me alone.

Like what the fuck, I’m become past my point and I refuse to care anymore. This is BEYOND stupid and I really need to suck this shit up and just get the fuck over it. Things changed and shit happens. Can’t do shit about it execpt for accept it. I don’t understand why that happened last night but whatever, it was dumb. Can this just be over with now? I really can’t do it. Can it be summer already so I can really do it?

How does it feel to be ignored? How does it feel to have the person you love stop caring and start smiling again & it’s not because of you? How does it feel to be a stranger? I’m sorry but aren’t I an animal? I’m not even worth it and I make your life miserable right? I’m sorry but what was the last thing you said to me? “Move On” right? Those two magic words & you honestly believe that I’d actually try to talk to you or respond to what you’re trying to say? That’s what I’m going to do. You can’t even text me something without insulting me. Who do you think you are? Who do you think I am? Your doll? No. Since when do you actually give a care in the world about what is going on in my life? Don’t you have yours? Go live it & don’t hold your breath. I can force myself and you make it so much easier with everything you say/do. I stop and think EVERYDAY about you, the memories. & with one single text message you bring me back and remind me once again. You don’t love me. I thought you did. You forget me and then when you have nobody else with you that’s when you remember my existence. I’m not here at your convenience. You are everything I wanted & turned out being exactly what I didn’t want you to be. I know there’s something going on & she will probably be your fuck buddy soon too. So thanks, but no thanks. I love you, more than life and everything that makes me happy. That isn’t enough. I thought you were something. I’m going to be happy. I’m not crying anymore.